Sumbang, menyumbang, sumbangan..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Awal minggu ni Helang dapat call from my colleague kat selatan tanah air. Macam cemas je bunyinya.

" Muni, I have bad news! " Helang yang dengar ni dah cuak giler. Have I or my unit overlooked something on any of our work?
" By the way bila last day kat sini?" Tanya dia pulak. Eh, ubah topik ke apa.
" 17 Jan.. tapi kalau ikut baki cuti effective 15 Jan.. Apa bad news yang you nak cakap tadi?"
" Bad news tu Muni resignlah.." Hok aloh.. this fella.. Helang pun gelak lah.
" Baru tahu? Kan dalam meeting hari tu ai dah cakap pasal my manager will head the unit from January onwards dan pasal handover?"
" Memanglah.. masa tu terdetik juga hati saya dan terfikir Muni ni dah resign ke? Tapi seriously tak sempat tanya masa tu dan tak terjangka."
" Tapi sayanglah.. Muni dah lama kat sini.. Bukan senang nak cari orang ada professional like you. Macam saya ni masih jauh lagi tak sampai tahap you pun."
" Andy (bukan nama sebenar) kan ada professional jugak? Lagipun korang janganlah underestimate yourselves. Saya tak rasa ada contribute apa-apa pun kat group ni."
"It's a big lostlah to the group. Sedih pulak."
" Life goes on..."

Lebih kurang begitulah ceritanya. Walaupun dialog bukanlah sebijik-sebijik cam tu. Tapi intipatinya lebih kurang.

Memang sejak dua minggu ni bila cerita pasal my resignation dah diketahui oleh kebanyakan staff dalam group of companies ni, kebanyakannya komen - sayanglah.. you orang lamalah...big lost lah.. company tak counter offer ke? Bla..bla..bla...Dengan top management pulak Helang avoid any conversation on why I'm leaving, where I go... sebab no point cerita pun. I have decided...

But seriously, towards end of my journey in this company, walaupun some people rasa lost, Helang tak nampak pulak why they would feel that way sebab I myself pun tak nampak I have left any big impact to the company. Only the fact that Helang pernah jadi head finance department of the main revenue contributor subsidiary, attend BOD meeting, dikenali oleh Chairman of the Group ( bukan public listed pun) dan top management, but other than that, no 'real' contribution. Lainlah kalo Helang brought new business ke, set up new successful department ke, or anything yang add value to the company... but seriously... nada.

So either I have too high expectation on the meaning of "contribution to the company" or staff kat sini have too low expectation on each other or everyone thought seniority is everything or I underestimate myself. Hehmm..

At this point kalau boleh tak nak cerita tentang perasaan nak meninggalkan company yang dah berkhidmat beberapa tahun. Sebab Helang ni nampak je 'tough' - dalam hati ada taman dan amatlah sentimental. Tipulah kalau kata tak sedih.. but let me just go through my few last days here dengan tenang so that I can quietly leave the company without any fuss.....

Salam Jumaat.