Insan Terpilih

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Kadang-kadang, bila ditimpa musibah atau diuji dengan sesuatu kejadian, jangan cepat sedih dan berputus asa. Ada hikmah sesuatu yang berlaku. Mesti ada perasaan redha sebab jangka masa sesuatu perkara itu berlaku takkan berpanjangan. Bila diuji macam ni selalu tenangkan hati dan pujuk hati bahawa korang semua insan terpilih sebab Allah nak bagi ujian itu untuk menaikkan darjat keimanan korang atau secara halus menegur korang untuk kembali mengingati-Nya bila sedikit tersasar. Lagi satu, mungkin ujian itu sebenarnya tak sebesar mana dan mampu untuk dihadapi kita dengan sedikit kesabaran.

Dalam dua tahun berpindah ke KL ni, dah dua tahun juga family Helang diduga dengan ujian ‘kesakitan’ di kalangan ahli keluarga. Tak pasti lah asbab nya. Makanankah? Persekitarankah? Mula-mula berpindah Helang ingat our life will be better. Tapi memang bila difikirkan dan secara jelasnya our family life become more hectic – what with travelling to and from work/school yang makin mengambil masa kerana ‘jammed’, sekolah yang juga agak jauh dari rumah dek kerana nak transitkan the kids kat rumah “Wan” dan “Aki” dan juga kids ever growing demands since they all tengah dalam process ‘growing up’.

Nak jadi cerita, dah tiga kali my other half hospitalized due to health problems. Bukan ler yang berat-berat sangat pun dan bukan due to genetic reasons. But more to foods and environment. Tahun lepas due to severe food poisoning (salmonella bacteria), and this year dua kali ( Jan : leptospirosis, Apr : denggi). So, you can imagine how hectic Helang was in between work, kids and hospital. Bila tanggungjawab dua orang parents terpaksa dipegang oleh seorang je and at the same time do the hospital visits and sleep over there, it can be tiring. During that period when my other half was hospitalized, I always keep telling myself to be strong and remain healthy sebab I can’t afford to let down any of my loved ones ( hubby at the hospital and kids at the grandparent’s house). Yang bagusnya bila dah pindah dekat dengan parents/other family members, we can seek for their help and they are always there to help. Bila hubby dah recover and was discharged from the hospital, there was certain time I nearly broke down and cried of relief because everything was back to normal. Syukur sangat!

So, what did I do to calm myself? Selalu fikir yang maybe kita ni insan terpilih untuk diuji. At the same time insaf jugak sebab mungkin Allah nak tegur kealpaan dan kekhilafan bila agak leka dengan kehidupan dunia. Kalau tengok dunia sekeliling, ada manusia yang diuji lebih teruk lagi. Remember Syria? Mesir? MH370? How would you be if you are at the person who involved in those events? Redhakah? Kuatkah nak tanggung kesusahan/kehilangan yang ditanggung? Jadi bersabarlah dengan sedikit ujian yang Allah beri. Jangan sedih dan kuatkan hati!

Local, Japanese, Korean and Conti

Assalamualaikum...

After almost 9 years MYVi ku berkhidmat dengan mileage 125k, Helang decide nak tukar kereta. Itupun sebab tak sanggup redah jem dengan manual car everyday to and from work. 

So past few weeks adalah check out few cars untuk ganti myvi itu. Criteria : hatchback type coz Helang naik sorang je dan jarang bawa penumpang - but must be comfortable enough bila bawa penumpang. Tapi cerewet gak, naklah jugak yang ada good accessories walau budget tak seberapa.

Ikutkan nafsu memang ada few car brands jadi idaman hati, tapi rasanya kenalah be rationale dan berpijak di bumi nyata sebab tak nak jadi 'biar papa asal bergaya'. Insha Allah nak beli rumah under my name so, tak boleh guna max available income.

Kalau takde aral, insha Allah by end of this month Myvi itu akan bertukar tangan. Hope everything goes well. Amin.

P/s : baru nak tukar from local car to japanese car. Whereas my hubby dah pun upgrade from japanese car to conti car. Talk about income disparity between me and hub.

On Different Road…

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

It’s already a month since I have started new job at new company. Oklah, boleh survive. Though ada few policies yang I felt so ridiculous and not so humanly (for me lah, maybe ok for others),  in terms of work-wise - as expected. Learning, but definitely not struggling. Of course first week rasa something different and a bit ‘lost’ (due to different environment), but as the tasks grow, I become better. Life goes on, as some people may said. Past few weeks, when discussing with few colleagues about certain policies yang I have not agreed to be implemented, at the end, when we observe that staff kat situ can compromise and stayed in the company and survived ( either willingly accept the policies or not). After a while maybe dah adapt dengan culture, environment and policies kat situ.

I still have not shown my full potential. Now tengah nak balance dengan new arrangement with my family. Baru sebulan, kan? Sometimes, rasa nak stay cam ni for a while, until I am ready ( more like when my kids dah grown up). Environment kat sini memang different, head of department sangat sibuk dan memang always working late ( I mean if balik everyday pukul 9pm memang kira lambatlah, kan?). Meetings always have to be done beyond working hours for the heads. So if the situation continues like this, terpaksalah I bertahan few years without promotion sebab my kids are growing and need more attention. My Senior Manager pun selalunya balik lambat because nak support the head if she needed anything for the ‘big bosses’. But he doesn’t have small kids to go back to ( dah at his 50s so what do you expect?). He is actually not a supporter for “staying back late = good employee” as opposed to my head, but because he is answerable to my head, terpaksalah he stayed back most of the time.  Good thing he will ‘kacau’ his staff yang tak stay back ( come on lah, working hours end at 5.45pm, but most of the time Helang pun balik around 6.30pm, what do you expect?).

So I quietly prayed that for these few years (5 years maybe?) he will still be around as my superior. And I quietly wish that I can prove to the head that staying back late does not necessarily mean you’re a good staff – my ‘azam’ is to meet all the deadlines of the tasks but at the same time not staying back late. Talk about efficiency. Kelakar. Why do I even need to have a posting for this? Oh, yes. This is what I felt at the moment. Different environment, different culture, different in everything.

Oh, do I need to mention that I write this post while accompanying my son in the hospital? Talk about ‘free time’.

Kabel rapuh, kabel kuat, kabel letrik, cable car..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim....

Lagi dua hari Helang akan ucapkan selamat tinggal pada company tempat Helang berkhidmat sekarang. Memandangkan ini kali kedua Helang resign from the group, rasanya tak perlulah farewell note, kot? Nak buat pun takde mood dan tak sempat sebab ada lagi few things nak follow up walaupun almost nak handover. To my staff, good luck untuk all the tasks yang on-going dan akan datang. Nampak macam under control but ada juga uncertainty. Yang penting stay positive je dan jangan pening-pening kepala.

So, ke mana Helang pergi selepas ini? Walau pun ada colleague yang dah tahu dan meneka dengan betul, Helang takkan reveal selagi mereka tak tanya sendiri face-to-face. Sebabnya mentaliti some of the people sebangsa ni, bila kita dapat kerja kat certain well-known company mesti ada soalan begini, "Guna kabel apa?".

Sebab ada few of the ex-staff pun kerja kat my future company lagilah Helang malas nak reveal. Sebab mesti ingat ex-staff kat future company tu yang recommend or ajak join. And as expected those yang dah tahu where I'm going tu memang ada yang tanya pasal cable. Kat HQ ni  bukannya they all know me and how I work pun, kan? So assumption nya pun begitu. Anyhow, I don't give a damn pun if people thought I got the job through any cable.

Tapi pada sesiapa yang been wondering tu, memang I've got the job guna cable pun. Ni cable besar jugaklah sebab semua orang kenal. Banyak orang jugak yang dapat kerja through this cable and not just for my future company. Beratus-ratus company jugaklah. So pada yang berani nak ubah angin keluar dari kempompong 'complacency' dan nak venture opportunity at different companies, cubalah guna cable yang sama dengan yang Helang guna.
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Oh by the way, my cable is JOBSTREET.

Wassalam.